Yipee!

I'm in the clear!! They said it was a lymph node. I asked to speak with the radiologist after the tech delivered the good news (she didn't inspire much trust, as she seemed totally on auto pilot the whole time). He also didn't have any personality, but did show me the films of previous mammos and gave a thorough explanation of his rationale. I'm only just now starting to feel relief. While I like to think of myself as a compassionate and personable nurse, I hope this experience will make me even more so. Eye contact, smiles, thorough explanations-- these things matter so much to the patient. I'm also grateful for this experience because it gave me the opportunity to renew my comittment to my health. I'd been really slacking on my nutrition and exercise goals.
Thanks for the words of support and prayer!! You guys are wonderful!

scared

I had a mammogram last week. On Monday of this week, I was called to schedule a diagnostic mammo, ultrasound and possible biopsy. No further information. I'm scared shitless. My husband is coming with me and I'm going in this afternoon. I have had many many thoughts and emotions these past 2 days. As a nurse, I work with cancer patients all the time. I've always dreaded getting a call like this and having to wait for more tests, more information.
And I have made a vow:
No matter the outcome of today's test, I am making a life change. Everyday, 100% of the time, I'm following the most healthy diet available and will do everything I can to eliminate all potential disease promoting factors in my life. If the tests show a benign condition, I'm going to do everything in my power to never be in this position again. If the tests show a malignancy, I will give myself every advantage available to get rid of it, heal completely and live a long productive life.
Please send a thought and/or prayer for me today.
Update to follow