Thursday, March 17, 2011

I'm doing it!

Yeah! I've been one week back on track. Vegan, no sugar, no alcohol and I feel great. The scale is moving down and I'm sleeping so well.

Looks like I stopped regularly posting here at the end of last summer. Woo. What a doozie last summer (last year really) was! My husband had seizures and needed to be driven to work and back, the kids of course were off school and had to drive with us. What a drag. Then my husband was hospitalized for a week and was found to have a heart condition that recquired a pacemaker.Long story short, he is stable now, feeling fine and working a great new job.

Then, he/we decided to take job out of state. He has since moved there and me and the kids are here trying to sell the house. Our house has been on the market for 6 months. As soon as we get an offer, we'll be able to move into a new place and all live together again. We have been having regular showings, but no offers yet. If I haven't been blogging, it is because I have been getting rid of our belongings, painting, cleaning and keeping the house "staged" at all times. A showing could call at any time and the house has to be ready. We have 2 little kids, 2 dogs and 2 cats. In one little house. To say this has been a challenge would be a gross understatement.

I think I'm doing ok. It has been quite easy for me to avoid alcohol and sweets this whole time, but the mindless overeating of crap really took over. About 10 days ago, I decided to do what I need for myself. So much is riding on me, that if I don't take care of me, nothing we are trying to do as a family will work.

Today feels like an important day because a couple is coming for a second showing! This is the first second showing we've had. I need to clean the snowy yard of any dog crap and get the house perfect. Maybe even bake cookies! Wish us luck. This could be it!

Sunday, March 13, 2011

I also realize

Recently, I realized a few life-changing things. I am the only person who can be the person I want to be. That would be me.

What am I waiting for?

I am stepping out of my own damn way!

I want to be vegan.

I want to practice yoga.

I want to be thin.

I want to experience vibrant health.

I want to cultivate happiness.

So, I turned a corner, flipped a switch, said "F*ck it" and decided to just get on with the life I want to live. Excuses are just too much work.

I'm not wasting one more day resisting the changes I so dearly want to make.