Wednesday, June 9, 2010

scared

I had a mammogram last week. On Monday of this week, I was called to schedule a diagnostic mammo, ultrasound and possible biopsy. No further information. I'm scared shitless. My husband is coming with me and I'm going in this afternoon. I have had many many thoughts and emotions these past 2 days. As a nurse, I work with cancer patients all the time. I've always dreaded getting a call like this and having to wait for more tests, more information.
And I have made a vow:
No matter the outcome of today's test, I am making a life change. Everyday, 100% of the time, I'm following the most healthy diet available and will do everything I can to eliminate all potential disease promoting factors in my life. If the tests show a benign condition, I'm going to do everything in my power to never be in this position again. If the tests show a malignancy, I will give myself every advantage available to get rid of it, heal completely and live a long productive life.
Please send a thought and/or prayer for me today.
Update to follow

3 comments:

  1. If there is anything I can do for you don't hesitate to ask. I understand what you are going through. If it makes you feel any better I had breast cancer 25 years ago and have been cancer free ever since. I will be thinking of you.

    big hugs,
    Ali

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  2. Oh. I hope it turns out to be nothing. I will be praying for you!

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  3. You guys are so sweet!! Yes, Ali that does make me feel better. And thanks for the prayer JBS--I think I felt it!!

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